The Weary "calling out to God" Pastor's Wife Prayer :)

What is written below is my prayer to God in a Storm I am facing Inwardly. I call it the "quitting storm"

Jesus you said, "Don't be weary in your well doing", but I find it so easy sometimes to be super weary. There is NO doubt in my mind that Ridge Pointe is Your thing...I have seen You take nothing and make something out of it and I have seen more people's lives changed in the past couple of years than in my entire life...and here is the BUT...

I am just plain tired Lord, This "Overwhelming Calling".has got me down...First and foremost my calling to God..Yes it is so rewarding, but so hard and sometimes i just wish I could step out of it and just take a seat as a normal (LOL) church goer, give as little in the offering as i possibly can ( if i feel like it) comes to church "if" i feel like it...Takes a break from church when I feel Like it... I would love to get to be the one who doesnt have to here the complaints and riducule and the super annoying excuses that people give us pastors wives and you (ROLLING MY EYES) uggg i could soo seriously do without that and I am so sure you could too...Or I would love to be the one that hasn't felt a financial pinch because of all that has been giving for this cause we so fervently believe in....I would not care what people thought of me, or of my family and my truth would be understood and not misrepresented. I am tired of being afraid of hurting someone's feelings and making them mad because they might leave the church or saying something i might not have said a the right time...I am tired of getting blessed by you Lord and not enjoying your blessing and left feeling like people might say "well that pastor is doing good he doen't need any tithe to come in he can carry a house and nice cars then he can carry and entire church......I am tired of defending my role in my home as a stay at home mother to my children and my help mate to my pastor...I wanna know that is what you have called me too and stand in that and ROCK it out of the park!

God Root out my hurt and bitterness, take away my fear of the known and unknown, purge my heart and ease my mind...Help me to have a holy heart after you and to stand in the midst of my pain and anger and uncertainty of this Calling in to your ministry as a Women of God, A Pastor's Wife and As a Beautiful mother to My 3 amazing children and to realize the YOU are in control....Help me to remember even in my state of complete dismay that
I am a beautiful, strong and passionate women who Loves her Lord more than her very breath...I would sacrifice my life for the cause of My Sweet Jesus, But my soul is delicate and fragile which has transformed me into this tired and beat down soul how wants to crawl up in a nice big fluffy bed, pull the covers over my head and say good night Ridge Pointe Church GOOD NIGHT to all the churches before ridge pointe and good night to a sad but painful past......

Happy Fathers Day to the MOST amazing man ever Shane Stone! Father of 3 :)

Hayden is down for a cat nap and the girls are in time out for fighting so i thought i would jump on. I am love the down time that i get which are very few now and far between...I am so proud of myself...just did a 30 min program on my eliptical YAY me!!! but Eww i am totally gross now...i really should go take a shower right? LOL

I am so excited about church tomorrow...and celebrating fathers day with my honey bunny! I love my man so much and want the world to know he is an amazing father, husband and pastor....I must take the time out to say Shane actually changes poopie diapers and has done this for almost 9 years from Hannah to Gracie now Hayden...and he wakes up and takes over the bottle feeding and diaper change at the 6 am shift for baby...WOW what an amazing man!!! he never complains but lovingly helps out around the house and actually likes doing it! what an awesome guy!

He is super busy with his chase business, pastoring a church plant that we are relaunching and balancing a family of five but he never fails to stop and tell me and the kids how much he loves us... he is always and forever hugging and kissing us and calling and texting i love you's....he really knows how to make us feel special!

I just want to say I Love you shane stone and i am so proud to have a husband as amazing as you are!!! i am so blessed to have had 3 beautiful children with you....you are a wonderful dad!!!! the best ever! and we all 4 of us love you more than words! thanks for all you do for us! and thanks for the almost 10 years of an amazing marriage!!!

I LOVE YOU MORE ALWAYS

SUMMER TIME

WELL I HAVE BEEN SUPER BUSY...JUST LIFE KEEPS ME ON MY TOES, BUT I HAVE HAD SOME WONDERFUL PLAYDATES, AMAZING SHOPPING TRIPS TO THE "MALL OF GEORGIA" WITH MY SISTER PAM, GIRLS DAY OUT WITH KATIE AND WONDERFUL TIMES WITH MY KIDS WITH OUR HORSE, DOG AND YES SLIP N SLIDE!

NOW I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO CAMPMEETING, YOUTH CAMP FOR MY GIRL, SHE IS GOING FOR THE FIRST TIME...AND SHE IS TURNING NINE :(...ANOTHER TRIP WITH MY KIDS AND MY SISTER TO GA FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS OF FUN FUN FUN...OUR ANNUAL FAMILY BEACH TRIP AND SHANE IS GIVING US NOT ONLY A WEEK BUT 2 WEEKS THIS YEAR YAY! I DESERVE IT AND SO DOES HE!

PLUS I AM PLANNING A GIRLS ONLY TRIP TO SAVANNAH TO START AN ANNUAL GET TOGETHER WITH MY 2 SISTERS AND AMAZING COUSIN ALL GIRLS SOOO FUN!

I HAVE BEEN BUSY READING MY BOOKS, PLANNING TRIPS, LOOKING FORWARD TO NEW FRIENDSHIPS WITH OTHER AMAZING PASTORS WIVES IN SC AND BEYOND PLUS ARRANGING PLAYDATES... BUSY SUMMER BUT I LOVE IT...

ON TOP OF ALL OF THE FUN I AM TRYING TO LOSE MY BABY WEIGHT SO FAR I HAVE LOST 25 LBS AND HAVE 27 LBS LEFT.....I CAN DO IT YES I CAN LOL

WITH ALL THE SUMMER FUN I AM LOOKING FORWARD MOST TO THE RELAUNCH OF OUR CHURCH RIDGE POINTE CHURCH.

IT IS THE MOST AMAZING PLACE EVER WITH THE MOST AMAZING PEOPLE! WE HAVE HAD UPS AND DOWNS BUT ALL IN ALL GOD IS IN CONTROL NOT US!

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ALL GOD IS GOING TO DO! I KNOW IT WILL BE GREAT!

SHANE'S VISION IS AMAZING...IT STILL IS SHINING LIKE THE SUN...I MUST BE HONEST AND SAY I HAVE SLACKED IN MY VISION WITH HIM...I HAVEN'T BEEN STRONG..BUT GOD HAS HELPED SHANE HOLD TIGHT TO THE VISION HE HAS GIVEN SHANE!

GOD HAS SENT AMAZING PEOPLE ALONG THE WAY TO HELP US AND SOME HAVE STAYED AND SOME HAVE GONE BUT I KNOW THAT GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US....NOR WILL HE LEAVE OR FORSAKE THOSE WHO HAVE GONE....HE WILL BLESS THEIR SOCKS OFF I KNOW IT! AS HE IS DOING FOR RIDGE POINTE CHURCH...

WE WILL RELAUNCH IN AUGUST...SO EVERY SAY A PRAYER FOR US BECAUSE WE ARE DOING THIS TO REACH THE LOST....TO SEE THE LOST COME TO JESUS....

Job 42 1-6 (THE MESSAGE BIBLE) Job answered God: "I'm convinced: You can do anything and everything. Nothing and no one can upset your plans. You asked, 'Who is this muddying the water, ignorantly confusing the issue, second-guessing my purposes?' I admit it. I was the one. I babbled on about things far beyond me, made small talk about wonders way over my head. You told me, 'Listen, and let me do the talking. Let me ask the questions. You give the answers.' I admit I once lived by rumors of you; now I have it all firsthand—from my own eyes and ears! I'm sorry—forgive me. I'll never do that again, I promise! I'll never again live on crusts of hearsay, crumbs of rumor."

WOW This is Powerful to me,but so true for where I am! God is God All Powerful and Awesome! I have seconded guessed Him many times I have not fully trusted Him especially in my pain, but He is there still all powerful as the day I stand on the mountain!

God is so Good...I love him!

Awesome Message Today

I know, I know Im Shane's wife and I am gonna say that I always enjoyed the message right? Of Course, but it truly blessed me! It was the last message on doubt and WOW! He talked about basically doubting Gods Calling on our lives!
We doubt that God Can use us because of Fear,Insecurities,Failures and We just don't think we are good enough for God To use! but the whole thing is that GOD USES LOSERS :)

SIMPLE...if you look throughout the bible you will see he picked the weakest most of the time!
Examples,
David, Scrawny Teenage boy that smelled like a bunch of sheep!
Peter, who DUH Denied JESUS right in Front of JESUS! WOW!
Moses, Couldn't even SPEAK right
Paul, Once Saul was a Killer who murdered hundreds of Believers
Heck God even used a Donkey to speak to Saul/Paul!

God loves You and Wants to use YOU too!

Awesome! He takes what has been broken,failed,fearful,weak and torn and turns that life around For His Glory!

Sometime we are opposite especially some of us that have been a part of Gods Work for a while or in Ministry.... we might be up high in our minds thinking we are all that and know everything about our area's but He brings us right down and allows us to suffer to learn humility and to learn who we really are in Him Christ Jesus!
I have come to the conclusion that He can't use someone if they already think they have arrived because they probably have :)

I love what the scripture says in 2 Chronicles 7:14
if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

My prayer is to be that, Humbled, Prayerful Seeker of God Who knows I am NOT all that within myself but Knows that God in Me is!!!!!!! And My God can take my failures and make them miracles for the world to see~

:) sooo if you didn't get to hear shane's message You got it just now :) hehehehe
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ENJOY! have an awesome night and Incredible week!